“I Know I’m Anointed… But I’m So Tired”

Nobody warned me that the oil would feel this heavy.

They told me I was chosen.
They said I was called.
They confirmed the gifts, prophesied the doors, and reminded me that this is the life I prayed for.

And I believe it.

But if I’m being honest—bone-deep, pillow-soaked honest—I’m tired.

I’m not tired of God.
I’m not tired of purpose.
I’m tired of holding it all together while waiting for the breakthrough to match the burden.

I wake up every day with vision in one hand and spiritual warfare in the other.
I’m raising a child. Running a business. Pouring into people.
And at the end of the day, I sit in the dark and whisper, “God… how long?”

How long will I carry this with no visible reward?
How long until the yes starts to feel lighter?
How long until someone pours into me like I pour into others?

You see, the most dangerous part about being anointed but tired is this:
You can be operating in power and secretly bleeding in silence.

People will call you strong when you’re actually shattered.
They’ll say “God is using you” while you’re silently wondering if He even hears you anymore.

But hear me now—if you’re battle-worn, it doesn’t mean you’re broken.

It means you’ve been in the fight. And that’s evidence of your faith, not failure.

Why the Anointed Get Hit the Hardest

Let me say this plain and unapologetically:
The enemy doesn’t waste artillery on people who aren’t carrying something holy.

If you weren’t dangerous, he wouldn’t bother.

That’s why the hits feel personal.
That’s why it seems like every time you get back on your feet, something else shows up to knock the wind out of you.

It’s not random. It’s strategic.

Because when the anointed get tired, discouraged, or distracted… the kingdom work they’re called to do starts to suffer. And that’s exactly what the enemy wants.

🛑 You’re Not Just Tired. You’re Under Attack.

Don’t brush this off like it’s just exhaustion from being “too busy.”
No. This is a spiritual assault designed to make you stop short. To grind your purpose into the ground under the weight of burnout and emotional fatigue.

You know you’ve been here when:

You’re pouring into everyone else but feel empty inside
You keep creating, but the joy is gone
You’re praying, but it feels like you’re shouting into a void
You show up online smiling, but you collapse in your bed every night in tears

This is not just tired.
This is the enemy trying to take out your voice, your focus, and your fire.

🛠️ But You Can Fight Back—Even Here.

Let’s be clear: even Jesus had to withdraw from the crowd. Even He got tired.

“But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.” – Luke 5:16 (NIV)

So sis, you can’t let ministry kill your mental health.
You can’t let people’s expectations bury your calling.
You need space to be poured into, not just poured out.

Your oil is precious.
Your fire matters.
And you don’t have to die trying to prove you’re strong.

Taking a step back doesn’t mean stepping out of purpose. It means preserving it.

How to Rest Without Quitting: Recovery for the Anointed Woman

If you’re reading this and nodding through the tears, let me speak something over you right now:

You are allowed to rest.
You are allowed to be anointed and exhausted.
And God is not disappointed in your need to pause.

He’s the One who created rest. He commanded it. He modeled it.

Even warriors need time to breathe. Even vessels need refilling.

So here are seven strategies to help you rest and recover without losing your rhythm or your reverence:

✅ 1. Don’t Confuse Rest with Rebellion

The lie says, “If you stop, you’ll lose momentum.”
But the truth? Rest is resistance against burnout.
It’s saying, “God, I trust that You’ll still move even when I sit down.”

✅ 2. Schedule “No Ministry” Days

Pick a day—every week or every month—where you pour into nothing and no one. Not the business. Not the brand. Not the book.
Just you, God, peace, and maybe some tea.
Protect that day like a sacred altar.

✅ 3. Get in the Presence, Not Just the Pattern

Sometimes you’ve been “doing devotions” but not dwelling.
Step out of the checklist and into the presence.
Just sit in silence. Worship with no agenda. Let Him speak first.

✅ 4. Talk to Someone Spiritually Safe

Stop isolating. Find a mentor, friend, or therapist who gets it.
Someone who won’t just quote scripture at you—but will walk beside you until your knees stop shaking.

✅ 5. Feed Your Body Like You Value Your Calling

Sis… you can’t cast out demons on an empty stomach and four hours of sleep.
Drink water. Go for a walk. Eat something green. (No, not curry chicken with a sprig of thyme. 😅)
Treat your temple like it’s holding treasure—because it is.

✅ 6. Write Without Pressure

Let your journal be a safe place again. Not content. Not captions. Just truth and tears.
Let God meet you between the pages like He did before the platform.

✅ 7. Worship Even if You’re Whispering

You don’t have to belt it out.
If all you can do is whisper “Jesus, I’m tired…” He’ll still meet you there.
Because He’s not listening for volume—He’s listening for honesty.

You’re not lazy.
You’re not weak.
You’re weathered from the war—and that’s why rest is your weapon right now.

You’re Not Weak. You’re Worn—And That’s Not the Same Thing.

Let’s silence this lie once and for all:
Tired doesn’t mean faithless.

Tired means you’ve been showing up—to the prayer room, to the vision, to the assignment, to your child’s needs, to every deadline you didn’t think you’d make but you still did.

And now your soul is waving a white flag—not in surrender to the enemy, but in surrender to your Savior.

Because you finally realize this:
The battle belongs to the Lord… and you were never meant to carry all of it by yourself.

You’re still chosen.
Still called.
Still trusted with oil.
Still God’s daughter—even with tears in your eyes and heaviness in your spirit.

You’re not broken. You’re just due for restoration.

🔎 Reflection Questions (Journal these)

What expectations am I carrying that God never gave me?
Have I confused being productive with being faithful?
What do I need to lay down today so I can breathe again?
Am I allowing myself to be ministered to, or only ministering out?

✝️ A Prayer for the Battle-Worn Woman

Lord, I’ve been moving on fumes.
I’ve been showing up because I didn’t know how to stop.
But today, I pause—not to quit, but to surrender.
Refuel me, God. Restore me.
Remind me that I am more than what I produce.
Heal every part of me that’s been bleeding silently.
I receive Your rest. I receive Your renewal.
And I trust that You’ll finish what You started—even while I sit at Your feet.
In Jesus’ name, amen.

Brave in Broken Places is my personal story of survival, surrender, and healing—with guided reflections at the end of every chapter to help you unpack your own story. This isn’t just reading—it’s restoration. Grab the book here – Brave in Broken Places

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